Tuesday, October 1, 2013

It's About That Time

I get tired, and I know I'm not supposed to, but it's not a physical status I can escape.

I pretty much don't really like to be around people...certain people hurt to be around...and truthfully it's such a stretch for me to keep up with people's moods and needs....it is just draining.....

Church service Sunday...Pastor's sermon  was about repenting, and not living a worldly lifestyle while pretending to live a spiritual one. He said the biggest problem Christians deal with is Pride. I know some really proudful people, who never apologize, never admit they are wrong, and brag about all the great things they do....what I wonder is...if I'm able to see that in them...what does that mean about me? Am I being proudful by

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Daddy

I was trying to think of what I could say about relationships in relation to God, the Bible, and Christianity. And although, I could regurgitate a bunch of what I think I've learned, I know that wouldn't help me if I really really needed help. And believe me...I need help even knowing what I know. Because after all, knowing and doing are two completely different things.


Growing up, I was taught that God was a man, and not ever being taught to crack open a Bible, I automatically equated God/Jesus/Holy Spirit to men of this world. Although I knew that God was 'better' so to speak...I still imagined him or personified him by what I knew of men. My Dad, Catholic Priests, Grandpo, Uncles, Brother, then later Boyfriends(not a sane comparison). It was a mish mash of identity confusion. I just wonder how many other women out there struggle with this.

Because I had difficulty with male relationships, I think I built a barrier to God. Thinking that he would reject me, punish me or abuse me like the worldly men. But

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Agape Love

Years of failed relationships with family, with friends, with husbands (yeess there was more than one) ...and always searching for love but not REALLY knowing what love meant.

I knew the Bible's definition ~1 Corinthians 13:4–8a (English Standard Version) Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. (ESV)...  
But I didn't know what it meant in action. I needed a live example outside of words.  
 



I remember reading a King James version that started out like this Love suffers long and is kind; ~and I totally missed the whole meaning and I right away went into 'Oh yes ~ poor me' and thought to myself, 'Well I sure got the suffering part down!' and ohhh how I suffered...


See I always thought of love as a noun-a person place or thing~instead of a verb- an action word-a happening....and I spent more time thinking about how to 'get' love than I did about how to 'give' it...

Loving someone despite. Despite! That's the part that gets

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

I Just Want To Cuddle

It is possible men. I know you have to work really really hard at it! But~ it is....

Sometimes she doesn't feel confident or she's not feeling emotionally strong, or she's just dog-tired ~so to speak~ and needs someone to hug her and tell her it's ok...or just hug her and don't say anything (Being a woman of few spoken words, this one works just fine for me)

There doesn't need to be a 'next  step' from cuddling if you know what I mean. There can be, but for her, when she is feeling that way ~there should be no pressure or guilt  placed on her....respect her boundaries.

Sometimes I tell my hunny, 'You're in my bubble'...and

Monday, August 19, 2013

Opposites Attract~He's An Extrovert In My Introverted World

Something in our DNA makes us attracted to our polar opposites...I used to think it was some heavenly joke, but now I think God is conducting a case study to figure out how to teach us tolerance, patience, kindness, and love since we are such a stubborn pile of chromosomes.



In my case, I am an Introvert, and he is an Extrovert. I can't tell you how many times in the past 7 years he has said or done something in public that made me want to crawl under a rock and stay there....foorrreevverrr! And he probably can't tell you

I Got The TT's

Yeah I got the TT's ~ Texting Troubles that is...

I don't understand how the young ones don't struggle when texting...Perhaps it's because they don't take the time to spell out words or do any efficient punctuation, and I'm a little obsessed with it. (Just a little though)

The problem with texting especially in a disagreement with your wife or husband is there is no emotional ques behind them, so sarcasm can read like anger, and

Monday, August 12, 2013

Ex's

I know that everyone says you should try to get along....but if you didn't, if it was a truly abusive affair...No, not like an affair affair...an affair as in <a matter causing public scandal and controversy: > then I don't see any sane reason you should be forced to revisit those instances, or those people who continue to be abusive to you.